3's a Charm

As I prepare to go back I spend my nights tossing and turning all night while my imagination goes wild with all the things that could happen, are supposed to happen (according to my coaches) and what better not happen. It occurred to me I should decide what I will do the first time I see Warlike, Watchman, and Usurper. Not all at once I hope. Warlike is easy, I’ve imagined that a thousand times even without knowing I would be intentionally putting myself in his path. It’s a sort of pleasant daydream of mine to rehearse what I would say or do. The circumstances vary from an accidental run in at a street side restaurant to hunting him down in his own office with a bold face confrontation. Some days I feel the anger and hate would drive me to hurt him severely, or something more. But then I regret ever thinking such a thing knowing that I am able to come to the brink of manslaughter because of what he has done to me. I will not let him win. Public humiliation is a more appropriate revenge.

And Watchman; we have already re-met and well… that didn’t work out like I would have wanted it to. I replay our two encounters over and over and kick myself for not showing a braver face. I should have walked right up to him and shown him I cannot be intimidated. Thinking about that whole thing makes me so mad. I should have sounded the alarm or at the very least got into got into a crowd and made a spectacle of him. I hate to admit this but he does scare the hell out of me. I panicked when he came after me and I ran away. At least that will give him a false sense of security. It won’t happen again, next time I see Watchman he’ll lose something even if it’s just his dignity.

But then there is Usurper. I am not afraid of him, merely annoyed. But it wasn’t until now that I realized he had been kidnapped just I had and rescued in the same daring escape led by Protector but no one has mentioned him. Where was he now? So I asked Protector. He told me that Usurper had indeed been brought back to the UK along with me but taken to a separate safe house. His situation was different from mine, he could not be identified. No known parents, no fingerprints to trace, nothing. He was a John Doe from birth and there was nothing to do with him except rehabilitation and to monitor him closely for the rest if natural born life. He resisted his captivity and eventually escaped from his MI6 team too, long before I ever did.

There is only one place for him to go. Only one place he belongs. And they are convinced he will be there when I arrive. That is part of the complication. I am supposed to have a similar story to his; Warlike is not to know that I am a plant. I have to be convincing. That is why they are taking so much time with me. Running me through all the possible scenarios and putting me through the emotional ringer so I can control my reactions at all times to pull off the perfect performance. Don’t they realize that they giving me everything I need to escape them all? This is the world’s best training in deception by a world power for free just so they can get at my creator. These people have no idea who they are dealing with.

The Show Must Go On

Three weeks of debrief, are they kidding me! What a waste of time. Well some of that was the whole “where did you go, what did you do” drill. That is tedious. After all my descriptions and getting a sketch done up of the dark man, Watchman, they still have no idea who he is. The FBI had one shot of him from an airport security cam but no ID match. It isn’t any surprise that his name, Watchman, doesn’t match anything they have either. He’s an effen phantom.

Then came the convincing part. Them trying to talk me into going back to Warlike. I put up a good fight. But I had decided already that was my only course of action. MI6 can’t protect me, they can’t even ID the guy. But Warlike knows him. Warlike has something on him. I don’t know what, but I intend to find out. I hate both of them but if putting myself under Warlike’s protection is the only way around this guy then count me in. It's temporary, it's tolerable. Once I figure out Watchman’s weakness and can adequately defend myself I’m blowing them all off. Too bad I can’t leave the planet.

Once they had collected every scrap of information about my escapades on the continent then came the part about preparing me for my grand deception. If they think spoon feeding a false back story is of any use they are so wrong. I nod my head and agree with all they tell me. Yes, of course, Warlike will never know that I am with the government. On no, I won’t breathe a word of it. He probably already knows anyways.

Make Believe

Once upon a time
there was a lost princess
who could not find
her family or friends
Everywhere she went
were strangers and dangers

She did not know her way home

Until one a day a dark man found her
along the shores of the Rhine
She knew him not
but he called her by name
where her home used to be
and how he planned to kill her

His reasons were his own

She knew he could
and probably would
She did not want to die
once had been enough
Ready to live
she had but one choice

No longer free to roam

Taking the path that had
brought him to her
she returned
across the turbulent waters
the only refuge she knew
to be used as a pawn

They all had much to atone

The princess and
this dark mark
They would meet again
and when that happened
she would be ready
and he would be dead