3's a Charm

As I prepare to go back I spend my nights tossing and turning all night while my imagination goes wild with all the things that could happen, are supposed to happen (according to my coaches) and what better not happen. It occurred to me I should decide what I will do the first time I see Warlike, Watchman, and Usurper. Not all at once I hope. Warlike is easy, I’ve imagined that a thousand times even without knowing I would be intentionally putting myself in his path. It’s a sort of pleasant daydream of mine to rehearse what I would say or do. The circumstances vary from an accidental run in at a street side restaurant to hunting him down in his own office with a bold face confrontation. Some days I feel the anger and hate would drive me to hurt him severely, or something more. But then I regret ever thinking such a thing knowing that I am able to come to the brink of manslaughter because of what he has done to me. I will not let him win. Public humiliation is a more appropriate revenge.

And Watchman; we have already re-met and well… that didn’t work out like I would have wanted it to. I replay our two encounters over and over and kick myself for not showing a braver face. I should have walked right up to him and shown him I cannot be intimidated. Thinking about that whole thing makes me so mad. I should have sounded the alarm or at the very least got into got into a crowd and made a spectacle of him. I hate to admit this but he does scare the hell out of me. I panicked when he came after me and I ran away. At least that will give him a false sense of security. It won’t happen again, next time I see Watchman he’ll lose something even if it’s just his dignity.

But then there is Usurper. I am not afraid of him, merely annoyed. But it wasn’t until now that I realized he had been kidnapped just I had and rescued in the same daring escape led by Protector but no one has mentioned him. Where was he now? So I asked Protector. He told me that Usurper had indeed been brought back to the UK along with me but taken to a separate safe house. His situation was different from mine, he could not be identified. No known parents, no fingerprints to trace, nothing. He was a John Doe from birth and there was nothing to do with him except rehabilitation and to monitor him closely for the rest if natural born life. He resisted his captivity and eventually escaped from his MI6 team too, long before I ever did.

There is only one place for him to go. Only one place he belongs. And they are convinced he will be there when I arrive. That is part of the complication. I am supposed to have a similar story to his; Warlike is not to know that I am a plant. I have to be convincing. That is why they are taking so much time with me. Running me through all the possible scenarios and putting me through the emotional ringer so I can control my reactions at all times to pull off the perfect performance. Don’t they realize that they giving me everything I need to escape them all? This is the world’s best training in deception by a world power for free just so they can get at my creator. These people have no idea who they are dealing with.